Forty Long Years

Cd: Forty Long Years

Words and Music by Randy Milligan

1. No More Anger

2. Rock Bottom

3. Time Will Heal

4. Let It Rain

5. Through Everything

6. Thank You

7. I'll Take A Chance

8. Hero In My Eyes

9. Forty Long Years

10. It Only Took One Day

~Check out the lyrics below~

No More Anger

I’ve been away, someplace far, far away

On some dirty old road, feet hurtin’, the sky was always gray

I’d lost all hope in some lonesome bitter place

Not knowing which way to turn, with a beaten down scratched up face

But now I see a light, it’s shining through my window right now

Unlike before…gray clouds, rain, snow falling down on me

And the anger, and the anger

Wouldn’t leave me, leave me, leave me alone

Oh, and then there’s you, who helped me make it through the night

So sick and tired of being sick and tired, you said everything will be alright

And I believed you, I believed you

No more anger, just peace in me, peace in me, peace in me now

Rock Bottom Words & Music by Randy Milligan

Bear with me if you can

‘Cause I’m goin' through some changes

You have no reason to trust me

But bear with me, if you can

The change I needed, but I couldn’t see

I was blinded, only felt the pain

Lost myself, who am I, what’s my name

I’m seeing the world through a new set of eyes

And it scares me so, because now I see

The pain I caused the ones I love with all my lies

Lost my faith, hit the bottle

Every day's a weekend, every day's a party

'Til you hit rock bottom… … … rock bottom

Life’s been such a struggle, an up hill battle

Every waking hour, every single day

Falling backwards, couldn’t catch myself

Lives I’ve messed up, people I’ve put down

That empty feeling when you finally wake up

An’ no-ones around… … … you hit rock bottom

I passed that opened window I could have jumped

I didn’t jump; I made it thru the night

Now everything can be all right, be all right

So bear with me if you can

‘Cause I’m goin' through some changes

You have no reason to trust me

But bear with me, if you can...

Time Will Heal Words & Music by Randy Milligan

I know I have to let these feelings go

But, It’s so hard when I still love you so

There seems to me to be so much at stake

I keep praying that it’s all a big mistake

I tell myself there’s gotta be a way

To change how I’m feelin’ today

But, Then I hear you say those words again

Telling me this really is the end

As the tears roll down my face, I hear

Move on, time will heal…

The clock keeps ticking on the wall

And it’s not getting any easier at all

You tell me you hadn’t been in love for years

And I should have seen it coming, my dear

As I wipe away my tears, I hear

Move on, time will heal…

If all those things I thought were right. Were wrong

Why do I still feel the same, like we belong?

Together forever, don’t think that way

Move on, time will heal…

Let It Rain Words & Music by Randy Milligan

I am on on my way somewhere I

Have never been it feels so good

To be free free at last

It took so long to find my way

I was lost I couldn’t find

I couldn’t climb my way out I was lost

I had thought but I was fooled

That I was on the right path

To happiness to happiness I was fooled

Now the rain on my face

Feels so good I never dreamed it would

Never thought it could so let it rain rain on

(Break)

Let me say one last thing

That I’ve learned in my life

I won’t close the door again….. again……again

(Extra verses)

Thank you for being there

Through those times when I needed you

No one else could calm my fears only you

Now I say good-bye to falling short

And crashing down I’ll carry on

I won’t look back my faith is strong I’ll carry on

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Through Everything Words & Music by Randy Milligan

Through all the hatred, through all my shame

Through all the anger I overcame

Through all the confusion, through all my despair

Through all the denying you’ve always been there

I feel blessed to be witness to the joy I have found

I feel calm in my heart, not tortured and bound

I’ve become someone I love with no shame or regrets

I’ll learn to forgive, and I’ll try my best to forget

No more angry drunk mornings, no hostile nights

There’s no compromising when you’re always right

And I don’t care how proud and stubborn you are

There’s a right and a wrong way to reach for the stars

I’ll be an invention of God, leave myself in his hands

Not feel bound by confusion and foolish demands

Not be led by temptation, hatred or greed

Become one with His light, all in God’s speed

And the child within is saying no doubt

It’s about time you learned what life’s all about

I was chained to this world, but I’ve left that behind

That was another lifetime when I was deaf, dumb and blind

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Thank You Words & Music by Randy Milligan

Thank you for the times you said you loved me and lied

Thank you for not believing how hard I had tried

Thank you for treating me so thoughtlessly

Thank you for finding someone else so easily

(Chorus)

You opened my eyes you pushed me away

You set me free

I didn’t know at the time

How happy I could be

You opened my eyes you pushed me away

You set me free

I didn’t know at the time

You were blessing me

(Verse#2)

Thank you for thinking I detained you from your youth

Thank you for twisting the facts to fit your truth

Thank you for not having the strength or will to believe

Thank you for being so young and naïve

(Verse#3)

Thank you for not being there when I needed you most

Thank you for not trying the solutions I proposed

Thank you for leaving me holding the blame

Thank you for feeling you had so much more to gain

I’ll Take A Chance Words & Music by Randy Milligan

I know your heart’s still tender, so is mine

I know you’ve been through a lot, do you feel you need more time

I don’t want to pressure you, and be too much to bear

I just want you to know how much I really care…and…

I____I’ll take a chance with you

I____I’ll take a chance

I____I’ll take a chance with you

I____Will you take it with me too?

I was telling myself not enough time has passed

Be careful of the rebound, and not to move to fast

So I wasn’t even looking when you walked into my heart

You took me by surprise…you know I was hooked right from the start

(Bridge)

I was trying to find my way

Just taking it day by day

A wounded heart needs time to heal

But now only God can change how I feel

I know you’re kind of nervous, and you seem a little tense

So, we’ll try to take it slowly, let everything make sense

My future that seemed so uncertain, now seems very clear

‘Cause when I look into your eyes my troubles disappear

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A Hero In My Eyes Words & Music by Randy Milligan

I know how you feel ‘cause I’ve walked in your shoes

All those nights filled with black and shades of blue

And now I know those memories are hurting you like hell

And you see yourself as just an empty shell

You’re gonna feel that wound until your last tear drops

Though scars will remain, at least the bleeding will have stopped

For so many years now you’ve been bondaged in shame

And no one deserves to be in that much pain

But I guarantee you will survive

You’ll grow up to be a hero... in my eyes

Like so many of us you grew up too fast

And like so many more you can’t stop living in the past

Now I know you’ve been self-medicating, and your still in denial

You’ve been trying to silence that inner child

You keep saying the world hasn’t treated you so fair

Please don’t pity yourself and think that no one cares

You’ll understand someday you weren’t to blame

You’ll hold your head up high and I’ll do the same

‘Cause I guarantee you will survive

You’ll grow up to be a hero... in my eyes

Now you can trust me and sleep safe tonight

There's no more monsters in that shadowy light

A new light will protect you and guide you on your way

Your faith will shine and you’ll be comforted everyday

I guarantee you will survive

Put your faith in God, He’ll open your eyes

And I guarantee you will survive

You’ll grow up to be a hero... in my eyes

Forty Long Years Words & Music by Randy Milligan

How many times has He parted for me

My seas of troubles and rivers of needs

But my heart was hardened and stone be my ears

So I wondered that desert for forty long years

Not hearing His call only feeling my pain

He had given me so much, but still I complained

Searching for something that wasn’t quite clear

I wondered that desert for forty long years

He led me through trials and tribulations

Disciplining the wicked, in which I was one

Being led by misfortune unable to hear

I wondered that desert for forty long years

And you tried to reach me for so many years

But your teaching fell on deaf angry ears

The wisdom I thought I’d learned from my tears

Was a lie, and now I see, I wasted forty long years

Blessed are those who need not see to believe

But I wanted proof before I’d concede

So I walked through the valleys and shadows in fear

And I wondered that desert for forty long years

It Only Took One Day Words & Music by Randy Milligan

I thought I couldn’t change

Now matter how hard I tried I stayed the same

I didn’t like who I’d become

I tried to escape but there was nowhere to run

I came to a point I couldn’t take anymore

I was lower than low, rotten to the core

I hated my life, I begged for relief

And that’s when You came and offered me peace

And it only took one day

To change everything in everyway

I never imagined it would happen to me

To be touched by Your truth and the glory that be

We listened and watched, we were shocked by the news

We saw every angle they can possibly use

An arrogant nation brought to its knees

Vowing revenge, still not humbled I see

But it only took one day

To change everything in everyway

Gods’ intention was to open our eyes

Where will you run when there’s nowhere to hide?

It’s not your fault you are who you are

I know you’ve tried and you think you’ve come so far

But you’re missing the point of everything that’s been said

‘Cause what good is living if your soul is dead

It only took one day

To change everything in everyway

I opened my heart and let His love flow in

Because love is the truth that calms the storms within

And it only took one day

To change everything in everyway

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